ha ha ha ha, I got over the obsession of YunJae by this couple. yaaaaaaaaaaa, Uchihacest.

Their forbidden love gives me so much feeling, bitter mixed sweet, violent mixed gentle, love mixed hate. Even YunJae couldn't drive me so crazy like this. And their fanfics, kami-sama, are the best in the world.

This post, I like to reminisce about my way to become Yaoi addict.^^

It happened 4 years ago, when I just started my new life of a student. I must admit that at that time I still was an "innocent girl". I mean it.^^
That time, I was a manga worm for any genre of manga, from shoujo to shounen, just one genre I hardly knew, shounen ai. And I read some of shounen ai manga without knowing that they were different from other kinds of manga. Even I laughed at gay and les, I didn't understand why they could be homosexual, and I used to keep that prejudice against them. Not until I went to University, did I know about Shounen ai.

I chanced on shounen ai when I read a review of Boys next door -  my very first shounen ai. I read the summary of it, and immediately sought for the manga. For the first time in my life, I did cry in the crowded place, I couldn't hold back my tears when I read the last scenes of Boys next door. And that manga kept staying on my mind all the time, everytime I thought of it, I cried again (dunno where such much of tears came from^^). And it marked my first step into Yaoi world.

My story didn't end here. After reading BND, I still didn't know much about shounen ai. And then, one day in a very small Internet shop with very cheap price, I met Yaoi for the second time. This time, I was done for. ^^ It was not a romantic shounen ai manga, or a touching, impressive one. It was Doujinshi of Gundam Wing (I knew this manga, because I got a poster of it hung on my wall). Those doujinshi were not just normal, they were hardcore, I must say real hardcore. And, to the one who just got wet behind the ears of Shounen ai, you guys know how terrible for me that those porn pics kept appearing in my mind all the way to home and till a few days later.^^

I myself kept asking: "How could I read that kind of manga?" over and over again, but I forgot that though I felt disgusting that time, I still read till the end of those doujinshi ^^ (If you're not Yaoi fan, you will never be able to read, I'm sure). I think it said that I had a potential liking for Yaoi. I tormented myself for a few days, then when I was lying on my bed, I saw the poster of Gundam wing, all those pics from doujinshi flooded my mind all of a sudden like a hurricane. I felt ... excited. ha ha ha ha ha. And I kept smiling, smirking, laughing all the time that my friends asked if I was crazy. That afternoon, I for the first time officially sought for information of Shounen ai and Yaoi.

The more I read Yaoi, the more I hated shoujo, ecchi and hentai (remember that before I read Yaoi, I was really into shoujo).
The world added one more Yaoi addict. I am now just reading Yaoi manga, watching Yaoi anime, movies and collecting anything that related to Yaoi.
Since I got my foot into Yaoi world, never in my life have I had so much joy. I could smile and laugh a lot, a lot. I almost hardly feel boring or sad, and I've become an optimistic one.

My friends told me that I was crazy and sick when I just loved to see two guys kissing. Never mind. As long as I feel happy, I don't give a damn care for what they say. And I'm sure that even 10 years, 20 years later or till I die, I'll never regret because I set my foot in Yaoi world.

Thanks to Yaoi that I've met so many interesting friends, also.
And thanks so much you guys for spending your time reading this creepy entry of mine. Thanks a lot.

Just a song of Yunho and Jaejoong. I loved this song so much that I decided to learn Korea to be able to sing it.^^